Do you ever just have times when you feel so anxious about something in your life? You feel like you need something to happen immediately… like maybe a week ago would have been nice? Do you ever let something invade your mind space SO much that you have dreams about it weekly? I’m talking dreams that are SO vivid you can smell things or even feel things in the dream…
And to be perfectly honest, it’s pretty cool. I went to a spiritual median and she told me it stemmed from being very creative. Me, creative? Gosh I don’t really feel like a creative soul at all. I feel ordinary, plain, and simple.
Here lately I’ve been having dreams about the house we’ve been planning to build. There’s nothing holding us back right now financially….. but the time just isn’t “right” we have “things” to tend to between the both of us.. work, kids, just in general life wise.
But that doesn’t really evict all these house ideas from my mental space.
I found myself laughing out loud today in the kitchen when I thought about all of the things I wanted in the next house and how so many of them are here in this really old house were renting… at our old house I always complained about not having glass doors so I could let the sun shine in and watch Aspen play outside. Here, I have three! And they all face every direction I need them to in order to see Aspen outside. I want a porch. A real porch, that I can put a swing on… decorate for holidays, and hang giant Boston Ferns from…. here, I have that porch. It’s the perfect size for a swing, it’s covered and I could certainly put some ferns out there. A nice private yard, where neighbor kids aren’t stomping through randomly and my kids toys aren’t disappearing from and landing three houses down every day…. I have that yard here. It even came complete with an old wooden swing hanging from the tree in the yard.
There are lots of other “things” I could go on and on about that hit me today. Isn’t it weird how sometimes it becomes completely evident that were exactly where we’re supposed to be at this point in life? To me it’s really weird! But today I’m totally thankful for this reminder.